1:30 a.m.(2/28/06)

Welcome to another edition of, "Chris Reese, This Is Your Life", only without the powerful career, celebrityism, wealth, and adoring fans for it to be based on... I am your host, and guest of honor...ok, so finally, finally, I have finished moving and dealing with all the issues that come with that. I've been so busy, I haven't been able to pen too much while doing that...MOVING SUCKS!! I'd rather go the gym, and I NEVER go to the gym. At least at the gym, you have the option of walking past weights and not lifting heavy ass shit!! And at least in the gym, you might pickup someone, cause you can still look smooth at the gym. You can't look smooth moving. You ain't about to pick up no woman, moving, wearing your class shirt from high school, looking like it should be on a sixth grader, some barely long enough Nike wind pants or sweats with holes in them, and some old shoes that you probably done used as shower shoes on several occassions-IT AIN'T HAPPENING. Anyway, I should actually be in bed right now - it's one thirty in the morning and I have to be up early to work tomorrow. But it's funny how inspiration hits you at the weirdest moments - in the middle of the morning, and i'm not even really that tired. Maybe it has to do with the rain. Ah, yes. It is indeed raining in Southern California. Someone sho nuff misinformed Tony Toni Tone. They say it will probably rain most of the week out here, which is a nightmare for a lot of the people of elastic land out here. It is a well known fact that some people out here have gotten caught in the rain real bad, have had their plastic surgeries run, turning into to instant human slip and slides. For if it rains cats and dogs in Kansas, then this is the city where they say its raining breast implants and collagen injections. And i guess if this were Florida, they'd be saying it's raining Metamucil, and prune juice. And if it were D.C., then they would probably be saying it's raining hollow tips and armor piercing rounds..anyway, enought attempts at beyond late night humor...i guess i just wanted get some shit off my mind, and let other people try to feel me on what's going on inside of me.. For the past couple of weeks I've been busy scrambling, getting stuff packed, stored, and boxed for moving. Beyond the fact that moving SUCKS, no big deal..people move all the time... i guess for me however, I always look at moving in a way that most people think about their own mortality, when someone they know dies.. for me, i guess it's always an introspective process of sorting; examining what is backwards, and what is forward; what is success, what is failure; what is strength, what is weakness, what the hell i'm doing, and so forth and so on... though i'm finally moved and am sleeping in my new place for the first time tonight, for the past year, i've lived with my two best friends in the world, and their two children. For the most part, the only family I have out here on the west coast is (and soon to be, was) them - they are going to the east coast. I just want to say that there are very few people in the world that most people would bleed for. Needless to say, my best friends fall in that category, and I am lucky to have had met them while at school, and becoming very close to them over the past few years. They would certainly, of very few people in my circle, be at my first, televised stand up special *fingers crossed* Not to say that I don't have peeps back at home in d.c. that aren't on that level, but I don't have to explain why people have certain people as best friends. There's just a certain clicking that works on many levels, that you feel God knew what He was doing, when he brought (a) certain person(s) into you life. Anyway, that coupled with the fact that I have lived with them for the past year, has brought us closer, and I've learned some things living with them, about myself, married couples, kids, and being a better friend in general, that hopefully I'll use to grow as a better person. Since I lived with a married couple w/ kids, I also got material on their asses too. HA! HA! But the point that I'm trying to make is, that considering they're most of my family, away from my family back home in D.C., to part ways from them, leaves me nothing but the option to think about how my life proceeds with two less (four including their children) important people in my life. I was thinking about that as I was driving, listening to songs like K-Ci&JoJo's "All The Things I Should Have Known", and U2's "With or Without You", my car loaded with the last of my worldly possessions, on the way to my new spot. It was almost exactly the same feeling I had the day I left home(D.C.) back in May of 2000 to come to California-exciting, but without the people most important in my life, to take the journey with me. And when I think about that drive I made tonight, I realize that success, though nothing wrong with it and most people seek it, it sometimes comes, and especially in my case, at a price where the closer you get, the more the journey is made to be lone.